My Vexatious Vixens

I just want to punch every girl in the face who says they look ugly untill they actually do look ugly! Then they will have something to complain about!  Alright so that may be a smidge unnecessary, but how else am I suppose to feel when my girls friends are saying how fat they are when in fact they can still pull off a bikini and turn heads (in a good sense).....Good? Wait what is good about wanting to turn heads? I mean if your proffession involves coital acts, then yes turning heads is a good thing.

The main reason I hate when girls (especially my friends) go off on their "ugly rants" well it hurts me. I see it as "Wow, and I'm over 200 lbs does that mean they think I'm disgusting?" *rolls eyes*  Don't get me wrong I mean I am trying to not be sucked into the stupidity, but it's hard not to when it's all around me!  This may sound strang but I actually feel guilty about working out today! I simply did it because I was being just like them freaking out about how squishy I am! Yeah I actually want to go shove a bunch of cookies to make up for whatever ounce of squishyness lost from the workout! hahah eh but then I would have to go downstairs raise my arms lift things in order to get to them and well...thats practically a weeks worth of workout sessions! 

Talk about a lose lose situations. *frown* So wait! Why am I disgusted with my body?

Ok so yeah I have love handles.... which makes me think of  a guy resting his hands on them while he is kissing me.

Yeah I have a squishy pillow for a tummy.....which will keep Mr. Right's head comfortable while we have a conversation.

And well I have actually never had a bad thought about my *clears throat* upper region..


Too detailed? Eh no because This puts things into perspective for me! I am only disgusted with myself because I lost focus and security in myself through hearing other's insecurity.  No I am pretty and I don't want to hear it from anyone but me.  It annoys the crap out of some people when they tells me "Lo you're so pretty!" and I respond quickly with a "I know!"  Well I do know! God doesn't make bad things! He makes only good! Satan doesn't have the power to make anything except lies he seems to have a sick pleasure everytime he plants them in our heads.

I know the only reason I am not with a guy is not by my outside apperance, but the fact that I have a long way to go mentally, emotionally, and most importantly spiritually.  At least the good news is I am getting there!

Is it bad I still want to punch every girl in the face for thinking she is ugly?

I'm thinking that's NOT what Jesus would do.......

~Lo out