My Phil of Love

Come close listen to the story

About a love more faithful than the morning
The Father gave His only Son just to save us

The earth was shaking in the dark
All creation felt the Fathers B-r-o-k-e-n Heart
Tears were filling Heaven's Eyes
The day that True Love died, the day that True Love died
When blood and water hit the ground
Walls we couldn't move came crashing down
We were free and made alive
The day that True Love died, The day that True Love died

Search your heart you know you can't deny it
Come on, lose your life just so you can find it
The Father gave His only Son just to save us

The Earth was shaking in the dark
All creation felt The Fathers b-r-o-k-e-n heart
Tears were filling Heaven's Eyes
The day that True Love died, the day that True Love died
When blood and water hit the ground
Walls we couldn't move came crashing down
We were free and made alive
The day that True Love died, The day that True Love died

Now, Jesus is alive
Jesus is alive
Jesus is alive
Jesus is alive
Jesus is alive
Oh, He is alive
He rose again

When blood and water hit the ground
Walls we couldn't move came crashing down
We were free and made alive
The day that True Love died, The day that True Love died

Come close listen to the story...



This is "True Love" by Phil Wickham has just I don't know...just been so helpfull I guess you could say.  It's never been easy for me to have empathy towards what Christ did for us.  I'm not in any way shape or form musically inclined, but music is a big big way for me to express myself when I find a song that I can relate with.  Phil seems to be an extreamly blessed when it comes to putting words and instruments together!

Easter is around the bend and it's going to be a new expericance with having no family traditions to endure.   I'm not sure what Easter without hunting for eggs, big dinner, and easter baskets is like but I'm going to find out soon enough.....wow....Easter truly isn't about any of that stuff anyways...it's exactly what these lyrics are about...Christ's love for the world to give us a guiding light while we endure the hardships through this life so we can find everlasting peace and joy in heaven instead of hell on both earth and...well hell.

It's not been easy for me to apply this thought into my way of life...but when I seriously think about how awful my life is without knowing what to do, where to go, and just feeling so dirty and unloved.....why would do I tend to choose to ignore His existance???? This thought saddens me...but at least I know that no matter how many times I get distracted...when I turn around He is right there smiling back at me and reaching out His hand to take mine.  :)

I love Jesus Christ

~Lo out

My Self Sabotage

I hate it when I make myself become a empty dirty pit.  I have no idea why I keep allowing  my self-seeking mind to corrupt the amazing work that Jesus has done within me....ugh time to start all over again tomorrow.  If I seriously could make it just one day without being selfish, I feel like that would be a huge accomplishment!  *rolls eyes* this is getting rediculous!

~Lo out

My transit[ion]

Hi my name is Lorissa and I suck at life....*random life suckers* "hi Lorisa....."

Seriously though Why is it I find myself dragging myself down!  There is the internal conflict where "Lo" I guess you could say is the mature(ish) one who loves experiancing new things, and then theirs "Lorissa" who much rather not take any risks and just live in a world that doesn't actually revolve around her....

I don't really know who I am now, because I have changed a few ways I use to live my life and for the better, it's just that ...ok um how to make this make sense....um I have a leaf that im trying to turn over and I tend to get stuck sideways....*smacks head* ok that doesnt make any sense....




I don't want to be scared to date guys
I don't want to be a jerk around the people I like
I don't want to say "love" I want to apply "love" to my life
I don't want to give up when I'm annoyed with someone
I don't want to be a robot dreaming of being more than just metal


I just want to be more than what I am now.



~Lo out

My Nonesense

Lent has been hard.  I gave in tuesday night and as much as I would like to hate myself for it...I won't.  My girl megs and austen have been super helpful in being my shoulders to lean on.  Wednesday I knew I had a lesson to plan for and at first the thought of not doing on sounded tempting but...heh I guess giving into temption is a common thing for me to do so I decided to talk about the importance of really learning something from Christ's sufferings and applying it to our lives and the lives of others...or at least that I was going for. The kiddies werent so much into paying attention as they were for carrying on mulitiple conversations....Today has been an eh day. I got checked out by the I guess you could call them construction guys at Ukrops...or so my mom says.. I mean they said something though I personally couldnt make it out.  Mom seems to feel that guys checking me out should boost my self-confidence....it doesnt, I mean I know I look good...God made me...He made all of us in His image thus everyone looks good. Just people get stupid and seem to come up with some sort of ranking "good-looking" scale that determines ones ability to attract someone....false.


Ok so while I am typing this I really just am killing time so I can hurry up to get to this weekend, and then get to next weekend....and the weekend after that!  Saturday is a girls night out...I need one! Sunday well church in the morning and then 6:33. Next friday "Remember Me" comes out with Rob Pattinson as the leading role *swoon* and the friday after "The Runaways" comes out with Kristen Stewart, Dakota Fanning as leading ladies...not to much the movie is going to be totally bad ass!  Sure not exactly a movie one would take a youth group to but any movie about female domination is kinda gulity pleasure of mine. I have always claimed "boys are smart girls are dumb" kinda mentality BUT secretly in all honesty Girls are totally freaking well bad ass!  I mean seriously we can take more pain, cry without embarrassment, wear any gender cloathing and still be considered attractive, and we smell good! Add music/drama to a movie and I say its going to be a winner.  One of my favorite movies is called "Prey for Rock-Roll" not a true story but its also about all girl rock band sept instead of being full of minors they are full of like 30-40 yr old chicks...who can still play there instruments..

Alright and yes I will agree the fact that all three of those actors are also going to be in "Eclipse" is another reason I'm stoked for the movies...June 30th is a ways away I need SOMETHING to tie me down till then....I really need to pick up Twilight and New Moon.....


I'm sure my next post will be more entertaining then this babbling nonsense about movies and such...

~Lo out