My Life as Jesus

I fell head over heels for this new show called "My Life as Liz".  It's about this girl named Liz who shares with the rest of the world her life as a senior in highschool.  It supposedly a "reality" show but im not so sure how real it is, BUT it is good (especially sense they made a [scrubs] referance!!!!!)  One thing the show talks about is how she has issues with the popular girls. 

Please go and google "my life as liz" and find where it will give u a site to watch the full episodes
then when u have watched the at least the first one then come and finish the rest of this post...if you still want to!....Please want to!!!

BUT if you have already seen the show then keep reading!

Ok where was I oh yes, so I was talking to my one of my lovely partners in crime callie and told her about the show which she then asked to see it. Upon veiwing she was impressed and asked to see the second one.

So this relating to my blog well, shortly after I became hurt and jelous that she invited someone other than me to go with her to get her sleeve (tattoo work) done.  As usual when I become upset I began putting myself down and saying how I wish I still didn't feel like an outcast and how as dumb as it sounds want to become popular with everyone.  She told me even the popular girls in the show also struggled with wanting to be liked.

I never really ever thought about how the "other half" truly lived.  If God made us all the same then why does it seem to have an unfair disadvantage? Simple actually because EVERYONE has at last one or two things that causes them to feel "life isn't fair".   The only differance between me and pretty much most of the world is I have a really hard time the inabilty to let stuff go. This is where I'm hoping some extra pyschiatric help will show me whats.  As far as my dream to become "popular" well,  the way that I see it now is this.  Jesus was extreamly popular! I mean the guy had a following of freaking thousandsof people. He didn't even try to be popular He just was because well He is a really nice guy (who happend to be the Son of God with the ability to raise the dead, cure incurable illnesses,do miracles and have an insane amount of compassion for everyone regardless of race,sex,age, place in society) but yeah He just became popular simply for being Him. 

So here is what I'm thinking, what if I just stop trying and start being all those things that Jesus was and who knows maybe I will have more people wanting to be around me....then again also like Jesus I could end up with a bunch of people who could want me dead on a cross.  Thinking on this new realization maybe instead of wanting to be popular is a waste, but being like Jesus well seeing how He only helps and loves on people and also gets to chill up in heaven (aka the most freaking unexplainably coolest place to be!) yeah I think I'll stick with following Jesus instead of being "popular" :)


~Lo out