My River of Hope

If there is ever a time to blast a song on a car stereo locate this song and do it!

That's what my girl JP and I did while on our way to sneak up on some friends of ours she hadn't seen in awhile.   I haven't seen this kid in what honestly seems like forever! We had so much fun tonight just being goofy, catching up, and got the chance to give a homeless guy a lunchable (the big one with the drink and dessert).  Getting to hangout with her even after being gone a couple months  was pretty much almost the same except better because this time she wore the most beautiful smile on her face.

  See she has been away getting help from her past.  The only thing that sets her and I apart is that she couldn't verabilze what happend to her like I did; however, she has now learned how to grow and put the past behind her.  I still haven't.  I do agree with everyone in the fact that what she has gone through was a harsher version of what I had been through, but she sees us as equals and to me that means a lot. 

I'm not saying that what I went through was the most tragic series of events compared to anyone else. I guess just  the only one who talked about it (and kept talking) and everyone else never talked about theres. In fact I still wonder if I know all of the stories behind my friend's past...

You know untill tonight I hated the fact that all I did was openly discuss my negativity towards life, my lack of self-respect, and even the awful things I did to get through a day. But tonight, my girl showed me how dangerous it was for her to keep all of I guess you could call "demons" bottled up inside of her.
Do a lot of my friends wish I had/would shut-up and stop being a negative nancy and find good things out of my life...I'm going to have to say probably a "HECK YES PLEASE STOP MY EARS ARE BLEEDING!!!' hahaha  or somewhere along those lines.    But I'm glad I didn't bottle it in now because even though I still have a lot to overcome and learn at least I was directed to my now therapist who I can spill my guts out to instead of annoying the crap out of my friends. Though I probably still do, but not nearly as much, so I'm going to say that's progress!

The important thing is if you have a problem (it doesn't matter how big or small) please speak up and tell someone!  So what if they ignore you keep trying because someone will listen!  No one should have to roam the earth miserable. That's not what Christ desires for us. That being said, at least for those of us who truly believe in Christ ( I include myself) we have GOT to listen to those who are in trouble no matter what!  If we are ever going to keep His light shining we have to make the effort to serve and comfort others in need! 

Who knows, maybe one day your going to need someone to help you!

(I love you girl and you better never forget it!)

~Lo out