I swear these last few days have been very emotionally draining...i hate getting my period thanks goodness its almost over! lots of changes have been going on and its tough having to change because of them. other than the fact that im very sensitive right now.
Im bummed because this wednesday night event i begged my youth pastor to allow, that "I" thought up, and is now being taken out of my hands...I want to lead somewhere i mean this was MY idea in the first place....UGHlwkadjaw'leha'HFwa'f why am I not allowed to take the reigns on this one...im not even getting credit for it!!!!
Also...i felt like i was being annoying today hangin at the coffee shop. seemed like every word i said was stupid no matter what it was and i felt stupid because of it. so i ended up leaving to go to 1822 early to give them a break. I felt better being around people i usually dont talk to...and thank goodness that seem to give me a peace about the "coffee shop group".
i dont knw whats gotten in to me....i hate when people pair off because i never have a pair..and im not talking about a boy/girl pair....although quite honestly im sure having mr. right would ease a lot of paranoia i have about my friends...or God could do that job...yeah Him....i havent really been hangin out with Him much, i really should since i may possibly lose my worship days due to work.....im really going to miss worship[s] :/
hopefully God will help me out and i will only have to work in the mornings on tuesdays and nights on sundays....i really do feel like im becoming unimportant to people :/
ok so goal for the rest of this week......
let everything go and let everyone be....
because...if they love me they will come
~Lo out
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