I dreamed while taking a nap today, but it wasnt a good one. my dream was about me walking in a hallway of a an old library. As i was walking one of my chick friends comes up to me and screams "is that how you really feel!?!" grabs me by my shirt and begins to punch my face repeatedly. I manage to scramble away, but not far enough to find me curld up on the floor. She begins to continue the beating. Then this one girl i know who isnt for fighting stands and watches.....
*phone rings* and its over
when i woke up the pain in my mouth made me question if i was dreaming. before my nap....my day started out not so well....we had a meeting a work about keeping up the good work during this holiday season and how we should remember to make sure we keep our problems at the door......i seem to be struggling with that. as much as i have made it a daily routine to fight back the tears and exhale i just didnt have the strength to do that anymore...even if the time and place was not what i would have picked.
UGH I JUST WANT TO CUT OFF WHAT TIES ME DOWN!
i feel as though i have an anchor tied to my ankle and im barely close enough to the water's surface for air....but im too tired to continue to tread water. if i knew what to do to get my entire being to function properly so i can continue with this life...i would do it in a heart beat....but i fear the solution isnt so quick and simple.
what to do what to do.....
~Lo out
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