New year....so i figure its time to bring out a better version of me...so today i decided to take advantage of the fact i see a therapist and really discuss how im going about achieving a better version of me. Now i am not going into detail, but i will say this...i was surprised how tough it is to be completely honest with ourselves and share it with someone. Having to dig down and bring up the dirty laundry was soo much harder than i thought. however...the secrets we keep inside whether we relize it or not...they do infact keep you sick. I guess in that case you could say i have been pretty sick for a looong time and its crazy how much it has impacted me...so as tough as it was today airing out the laundry....im surprisingly feeling like a tiny weight has been lifted....im not saying all is fixed...but just knowing im A) not alone B) have a game plan ...is helpful
gosh no wonder i have been such a.......frustrating person to be around! one positive thing i have seen with this frustration is being open to whomever crosses my path...not being phased by anything....cant say im "nonjudgemental" because i totally do the whole look at the cover of a book and decide if its cool thing....BTW twilight has cool book covers :P so im not soo perfect but it someone came up to me and said they struggled with insert personal struggle then i would be like first ur cool cuz ur being real and i like that and second i would say nonchalantly "ok". and then listen to you and if asked give as best advice as i could....I guess that is a spiritual gift i have...being phased by nothing...is that one???
I'm relieved to know that God is phased by nothing and loves me no matter what...thats pretty awsome
~Lo out
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