My loss

I miss him. I try so hard to move on with my life, trying to fill the void he placed when he left. "Jesus can fill that void"......I hate hearing that.....I'm a believer I KNOW!!!!!!!!! but have you ever stop to think that maybe God was broken? Watching his only son die? The only difference is God got his son back....I don't get to have Papa back here with me. I was his favorite and he made sure everyone knew! He spoiled me with gifts and fun things to do. Sure he was disappointed in the mistakes I made which actually cost thousands of dollars....but he fixed it and reminded me not to worry. His hugs were amazing. His "you don't need a boyfriend you got your papa" speeches reminding me never to settle, and my favorite quote from him that breaks my heart the most








"you live down here and I live up here, this ways rocky and this way is muddy.....but you wanna come see me so *as he flicks my nose* so you go allllll they way up here!"



I'm tired of trying to find something to replace this....

~ Lo out