My time out

lets reign this all in....ok *deep breath in*.....*slow exhale*

alright, so yes this is not what i would consider to be one of my top 10 favorite of days....but the day is ending and yeah it was a tough on to endure....no reason to continue to lose my mind.  I cant be losing myself too.  As much as i would LOVE to throw in the towel and just stay curled up in the dark wishing for stuff to go away.....i dont have that luxury.  That's not fair to my family thats not fair to my friends.  Sooner or later im going to be needed and i need to make sure i can be counted on....i hope i have made myself available for others in this time of my own personal suckyness......knowing im not the only one going through stuff yeah its comforting but its also crazy that billions of people have their problems too...and its sooo easy to be consumed in personal problems that you foget about others.   I hope i havent done that.... :/ 

So yeah....crazy to go from never posting on this thing....to blowing up my blog in just a few days!  then again i do finally have a stable computer :)   See i guess i do still have the ability to create some positivity....good im going to need it when i start back up at work.  I'm not ready to go back.....but i need to.




~Lo out