music is the easist way to explain how your feeling....that is if the people know who it is your listening to....so for me it was a david gray, the verve, switchfoot, and jack's mannequin while jogging/walking today. It's been awhile since i got out and just "do me".....but thats what today is...as much as i wish i could continue giving everyone in my family relief by taking care of stuff.....i havent really taken much care for me...last night was not what i was hoping for when trying to "take a break" because while i was at eighteen22 i was getting txt asking if i could help stay out and keep and eye on the apartment while older sis was in the hospital again....btw she is fine.....just tired with a broken heart....Ok so that was harsh.... but im human and this is how i feel....and well this blog is the only thing i never feel guilty when im venting....
ok last night is over....get over it......ok
Im going back to work today....im kinda nervous...its been about a week and 1/2 since i have worked so i have no idea whats going on except that hours have changed and im working a crap load! i hope i can handle this...because honestly i feel like i cant. Soooo much has changed! ok *deep breath* i can....well more like i have to, for myself. I have to stay in this to prove i can. I have come so far and everyone seems to be proud of the distance....so i need to keep it up regardless of how i feel in the moment. I need to come up with a hobby to look forward to when i have downtime. I dont consider this blog a hobby...more of like a place to air out life.
i hope to write some positive stuff on here soon :/
~Lo out
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