I'm working on 5 hours of sleep right now and a chat with mom and older sis wasn't exactly on my to do list. I have been stressing out since about 10:30am looking for a backup plan as to getting retreat travel plans figured out...(which still unsure if I have a spot in the caravan) I just feel like crap right now. I'm tired, frustrated, anxious, and nervously wondering what to expect out of the weekend. I hate snow....I have yet to have a snowfall this winter I have been able to enjoy.
I know a majority of my problem is I am holding in anger and resentment towards a lot of people. I don't have anyone room to really allow Jesus to do a good work in me, and I know I am not only hurting myself but also those who are innocent. They sadly keep getting the negative version of me because my anger/hatred for others is spilling into other parts of my life where it doesn't belong...this "attmept of control" is out of control. I want justice my way and even though I know as a believer I'm not going to get it....I can't keep myself from seeking it! How many poeple do you know who would admit this about themselves.....
~Lo out
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