My 2 cents change

its a great feeling when you just believe with your whole heart that you are loved by others, now if only i could feel like i belong.  I have been going to the church called cambridge baptist for about 19 years, my parents well sadly they have only been their for about 15 and that number has sadly stayed that way.  without getting into too much detail they were mistreated in an awfull way in which they never wanted to come back.  I kept going because of friends and it was a place i could run to...even during the dark times between my friends and i...church was still better than home.  Now 3 years after youth....i feel like im not wanted by the church anymore. theres nothing there for me and its heart-breaking.  one of my friends who has been going there has a great musical gift and clearly is wanted more than me...and yet that being said feels the same way..like the church doesnt care what happens to us.  a bunch of poeple have left and its like the church doesnt even think twice...hell my parents put there all in to the church and no one seems to be appologizing and begging them to come back....i get the whole some churches dont want to push people in to christianity....but i mean if that person/group of people are already christians....shouldnt they be keeping tabs on their fellow spiritual siblings???   

1Thessalonians 5:11 says "Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing."

well i dont know if your aware but how is someone suppose to know that a fellow church member is struggling???  I feel like the youth are their own church...and thats never what was ment to happen. I and im sure their are others who feel the same when it comes to accepting the young like one of the adults....Becuase now that Im not in youth...its like being shoved off a cliff with no parachute!  The older adults have already experianced what its like to be 20 something...its a difficult and scary time that I know i could use some encouragement  on how to not let those scary times keep me from spiritually fall away.

point i guess im trying to get at is this:

i dont feel like a belong to my old church and well i cant force people to change the way they are....so im going to have to make a change.  and sadly the only way im going to grow is well...shake the dust off my sandals and move on :/

~Lo out