At biblestudy I could honestly say for the first time I was in a good place with no prayers needing requesting...that being said I now am realizing I do and was too stubborn to admit it. So I am on here. My prayer request is that I don't allow myself to lose it in June it being the month a year ago the most important person in my entire died. I still miss Papa and in all honesty I purposefully try not to go see granny since because of this she emotionally died too. I miss my grandparents. I miss the way the were excited everytime I visited them. Sure old people don't deserve to stay alive after 75 mostly cuz friends and family die off by then, and who wants to see that? Not to mention I know Papa especially was eager to go and I wouldn't want to stop him not like I could McNeelys are a super stubborn clan. Still even now thinking about it is starting to sadden me now. I have accomplished Sooo much and I just want to run and tell both of them " guess what I'm doing!?!" sure I have friends and the rest of my family to talk to...but it's just not the same.
So basically pray that God allows me to carry on.
~Lo out
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